Comfort Through Stars

Wrote this last night during a time of prayer, while listening to this song. Give it a listen while you read. I think the music supplements it well. Anyway, enjoy!

Our tear drops fall like drifting stars
We never really know what happens
It's as if all these emotions are concocted in our souls
Only to be expressed by the unique sparkling tear drop.
Gorgeous.
Every drop is the same, yet perfectly distinct.
Each tied and sown together with its own specific meaning.

I wish I cried more.

I wish I could experience the gravity of every emotion
And see it pieced together like God pieced together the sky of the universe.
Beautiful.

It seems I can never fully understand my tears
Only thing I know is that where my tears are,
The Comforter is there as well

Through every heartbreak
Through every disappointment
Through every trial
We find ourselves Empty
Unsatisfied
Disconnected
Broken

Our tears are a metaphorical "White Flag"
Because this roller-coaster ride of an adventure is too much for us to handle on our own
It's a burden we aren't properly equipped to bare.

When the Comforter sees our White Flags
He grieves AND rejoices
Grieves - because we are so tragically hurting
Rejoices - because He has a new opportunity to LOVE us!

If you break it down,
I think you can say my tears have two kinds of DNA
One is of Pain,
Hurt
Betrayal
Brokenness
Doubt
Death

Yet there is another one after I feel the Comforter cradle me like His Son.
That one is one of Hope,
Of Freedom
Of Love
Of Comfort
Of Resilience
Of Triumph
Of Restoration
Of Revival
Of Resurrection
Of Completion

It's Amazing!
The intricate design and perfection of a tear
It expresses our souls more vastly than any word,
Any song,
Or any picture,
To the point where only the Comforter can fully comprehend!

The most beautiful part about that is
That the Comforter uses that knowledge to Comfort us perfectly
Far more superior to any human creation

I wish I cried more of Joy!!

I wish I could show the perfect expression of my soul so terribly bad!
Because He deserves it!
You deserve it God!
You deserve it Comforter!
Healer!
Father!

These stars I have shed,
I am not ashamed
Because you see the true meaning in every. single. twinkle.

And when my stars burn out
You graciously give me new ones
For an incomprehensible form of prayer
Which is by far the most glorious
And elegant
And perfect prayer You have blessed us with

Oh I long for your Comforting presence oh Comforter!

I'm so sick of feeling like I am too dirty to have it

Oh Comforter! I have done so many terrible things
I cannot forgive myself for!
To where I push You away!
Saying I am too filthy

But through the stars I shed right now,
I finally see.
That You died. So You could Comfort - me.

Your stars of blood obliterated the separation between us!
Shouting "Thank You" will never be enough
To express my thankfulness, my joy

So I will leave You with my tears
Which twinkle like stars
The stars You set in the sky
To perfectly express the joy and thankfulness of my soul,
Which is always unique, special, new
And never. Grows. Old.